Mother's day...

Mother's day is this coming weekend and so far I have taken each mother's day for granted. In the sense that I don't think much about days in general that are dedicated to a special occasion. I have always felt that it is not the milestone marked by an anniversary but the daily celebration of our marriage itself that matters and so are birthdays, valentines day, etc to me. I definitely care about making J's or the kiddos birthdays special but have so far in life not valued the days dedicated to me much. I used to love my birthdays but even those have lost their significance in face of life. BUT, this mother's day is special. It is special because it is dedicated to Anju and Dhruv. I have reached a point in my life where I feel complete now (like all the parts of my self are fully formed). I am defined by my children. As much as I thought parents molded children, I think it is the other way around. My kids make me who I am. It is very subtle but in teaching them values, I am forced to live by them myself. In chiding them, I are scolding myself for being less patient. In playing with them, I am allowing myself to be a child again and in loving them, I have learnt to love myself. We have been blessed with an adorable daughter born far far away from us. Were we born for her or she for us, I don't know. One thing I do know is that we love her very very much. It has only been over three months since she has been home but Anjali has had such a profound impact on us. I want to thank Anjali for allowing me to be her mother, for accepting me and my love with all it's flaws.

Most importantly this mother's day, I want to thank her birth mother. I hope that wherever she is, the universe let's her know that Anjali is safe, happy and mischievous as hell!

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there!